I sit down, watch the rain pouring down outside. Hear it hitting the wall, the window and the grass, followed by a little rumble in the distance. It creates a stillness in the room, a stillness that is fastly overclouded by my thoughts.
Who am I? What does my future hold? What do I want to do with my life ?
I have been a little thoughtful lately, unsure of what I want to do with my life, where I want to live and who I want to be. I am the biggest planner there is, so not knowing, just going with the flow as my mom says, it not really my thing. So, naturally my head is spinning.
For the last few years, I let my baby project Best of You define me and occupy me, but when I suddenly felt it was time to move on I closed down a part of myself at the same time. If that makes sense.. Leaving me a little unsure of what my purpose is.
I try to just go with the flow, do what feels good and trust that whatever is supposed to happen happens. And that everything will solve itself eventually, if I just allow myself to be open for possibilities and changes, but it is hard.
Guess getting out of my own head would a good way to start.
Lots of love from Henriette Sophia